It’s only day one, and I’m already fucking up.
During the second half of the hellacious day that was today, we went to our small group time with our affinity group.
Affinity groups are suppose to be divided by the race that you identify. White people groups, black people groups, LGBTQ groups, API groups, Hispanic/Latino(a) groups. I understood this fact after about 10 minutes in my affinity group. Because, let me tell you how I royally fucked this one up.
I guess, somewhere in the process of filling out the dozens of surveys for TFA before arriving at Induction, I decided that I was either
- over it
- tired of being asked or
- a smart ass
because I’m fairly certain that for the question What race do you identify as I answered I would rather not say. As the affinity group began, the staff member introduced it as the Multi-Cultural, Multi-Ethnic group…
Confession: I am white. Like, very white. No rhythm, clumsy, awkward; stereotypical white girl, white.
But here I was, sitting in the multi-cultural, multi-ethnic group and I was the only person that did not identify as bi-racial. When had to go around the circle and introduce ourselves. What’s your name? Where are you from? How did you end up in this group/ how do you identify?
HAHA, ok! How do I pull this one off? Time to get creative…. Let the brainstorming begin. It actually wasn’t even that hard, I’m quick on my feet. I dove into my story of frequent moves, international schools, diverse friends, and a variety of cultures. “I’m white,” I stated the obvious, obviously… “but I identify as multi-cultural because I am use to differences, I’m accustomed to diversity,” blah blah, I continued on. I have to admit, it sounded pretty damn good.
But still, all the mixed raced individual in the groups stared back at me with their gorgeous, warm hazel eyes. I made up their internal dialogue in my mind. What the hell is this white girl’s story?! This little white girl has got to be lost!
But everyone was nice enough and it’ll be totally fine. What do white people talk about in their white people affinity groups anyway? Sounds lame. MULTI-CULTURAL/MULTI-ETHNIC FOR THE WIN.
At that my friends, is my awkward, awkward life.